back to school.

after 2 weeks school starts again tomorrow. yet, it doesn't feel like break is really over even though there is just a few more hours. im some ways im excited to go back and in some im terrified. im excited to see friends i didnt get to see over the 2 weeks and getting to hang out with them again. even being in some classes im sort-of missing. sort-of. but in a same way im scared to go back to some classes. also to face ridiculous, un-needed drama which comes hand in hand here. 2nd semester starts soon. im only a half a year away from actually having to think about where my life is going. im not sure if im ready for that yet. but maybe i am and a half a year is all i need to figure that out. i feel this confidence for next year like i felt for this year. but things dont always turn out the way you want them too. im not sure what im feeling. only time will tell. i still dont have a new years resolution. perhaps its not to have a new years resolution and just take life as it comes. and try not to interfer too much. maybe, just maybe ill turn out to be a better arin in 2009.
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