*warning: this is planned to be a very long blog. end warning*
today is wednesday. on wednesdays at school i only have 3 classes: history, maths, and cesmart. 2 hours each. i dont really like wednesdays because i cant stand math. but i can usually get through history and cesmart pretty fast. so, after history we have a 15 minute break were we can just stand around do whatever. but today it was raining really hard, and my school is an outdoor school. meaning that when we cross to oter classes we have to go outside. and when we have lunch or break its outside all over campus. so obviously since its raining we have to all duck under what little area that has covering. i was waiting for math to start and i was going to go throw away my trash. but to do that i had to go into the rain to get to the trash can. so i did, and ended up walking right into a puddle. the inside of my shoes got soaked and so did the nylons i was wearing. and for the rest of they day i had to deal with my feet being numb and the rain that was still pouring down like a bitch. i like rain mostly, just not when i have to get that uncomfortable wetness on you clothes. in cesmart, ashton went home sick so i didnt really have anyone to talk too except for tony who was at a different module than me. i got through 4 days of work and tests by myself and being bored to death. eventually i just started reading because i couldnt be bothered to do anymore work. then we had a short break after one hour . tony had a candy cane and when he pulled it out people proceeded to ask im for some. i couldnt help but sit back and laugh at how they all crowded around him like he was holding the meaning of life in his hands. but he didnt give any to any one except for me which i wasnt expecting. but its was nice. its funny because i remember having the hugest crush on him in 4th grade. my two other best friends did too and we would ask him everyday who he liked best. and few times i was on the top of that list. its weird to think about it now. but sortof nice at the same time.
[ps-im really longing for a christmas tree, but my dad is saying 'no religon' what so ever. but i dont really consider it that. im not religious, i've never been. its not how i was raised. but still its part of the holidays and i cant help but feeling deprived when all my friends get trees and are decorating. i really wish i can just put a tree in my own room and putting up lights around my bed.
happy holidays to me.<3
